the last something that meant anything.

shocked. surprised. appalled. crestfallen. scared to death.

and the worst part; it shows.


i've never been a fan of good byes.
a melancholy affair.
such disconsolate state.

then it came.
the words i dread to hear even in my wildest dreams.
maybe there's a reason for everything.
i'm sure you had yours.

and so, it did rain on my parade.
a masquerade, it ain't.

and this empty space left in the seat to my right
where you should be says a lot.

she'd sworn me vows in fragrant blood,

"never to part Lest jealous
Heavens stole our hearts"

then this i screamed,

"come back to Me for I was born
in love with Thee so why should
Fate stand in between"

if you wanted a song written about you, all you had to do was ask.

funny how things people say always seem to come around
and kick them straight where it hurts.

cliche ?
perhaps.
but it's true i guess.
well, at least that's what i think.

and one more thing.
the heart is a funny thing.
it has place for only one, apparently.
but it can somehow manage to squeeze another into the picture.
and you said it was impossible ?
amusing much.

hidup mesti mahu gentle, bro.

ingat.

fuck you, life.

hiatus,
fuck you all.

#2.

paul gray, you will never be forgotten. rest in peace.

the nine will never be the same without you.

in case anyone cared.

let's start off with one bad thing.
the weather's not being very nice.
the heat's killing every single one of my brain cells.
please make it rain, yea ?

enough lamenting on something that we can't do anything about.
on the flip side, the much overdued outing with the boys was gerek.
so much fun, so much laughter.
i need more of those.

kita gerek!

spring cleaning.

well, hello.
it has been a while, huh.

weeks flew by in a blink of an eye.
cliche, whatever.

week 6 approaching.
it's going by fast.
one thing i ask; please make it rain more often.
thank you very nice.

so many people i haven't caught up with.
apologies if it was any fault of mine.
but please, meet up soon yea.

and i know this is WAY too outdated, but happy 2010.
let's all hope 2010 will be kind to us all.

tough days don't last;

tough guys do.