Hiatus.

oh how time flies. too much dust on this blog. been way too long.

so anyway, sekarang dah no longer NSF. NSmen ji! haha.

but that is old news. fasting's coming up again, like in two days.

well, prepared or not, embrace it I shall.

everyone's growing up so quickly.

having jobs and stuff.

it's so weird.

I don't wanna grow up, pretty please.

enough lamenting.

now let's just sit back and enjoy the fasting month.

in the words of the internet nowadays,

LEGGO!

untitled.

embrace the numbness.
where everything spins out of control.
but you know you want more.
i want more.

that girl.

i don't need that girl by my side
i don't need that girl in my life
i don't wanna talk it out or hold when she cries
i don't wanna say she's my kind
i don't wanna say that she's mine
i don't wanna tell her that i love her more than life
more than a life

but it would be wrong for me to say this.

he said.

"girl can i tell you a wonderful thing ?
i made you a present with paper and string
open with care now i'm asking you please
you know that i love you, will you marry me ?"

inner mask.

it's that guy inside that's had to deal with every

little bit of pain in your life.

the guy you choose to put forward and it's like,

"you deal with this because i can't handle this".

corey taylor

lights out.

music; pure solace.
escape.

the song ends.
everything goes numb.

reality check.
everything's back to where it was.

nothing's changed.

food for thought.

he bathes in his past.
succumb to helplessness.
plagued by memories so bitter.

he strays away from the negativity,
only for it to haunt him when the sun decides to sleep.
the moon stands in cahoots with the stars;
providing a caricature of serenity.

misleading thoughts, heavy hearts.
manifests.

slowly; oblivion.

let love bleed red.

i realised now, maybe a tad too late, but i realised;

that i was being too self centered.
that i did not take into account how you really felt.
that i let you down way too many times.
that i should've treated you way better.

i'd give my life to make it right.

i miss you.
i am a total wreck without you.
i love you.

the last something that meant anything.

shocked. surprised. appalled. crestfallen. scared to death.

and the worst part; it shows.


i've never been a fan of good byes.
a melancholy affair.
such disconsolate state.

then it came.
the words i dread to hear even in my wildest dreams.
maybe there's a reason for everything.
i'm sure you had yours.

and so, it did rain on my parade.
a masquerade, it ain't.

and this empty space left in the seat to my right
where you should be says a lot.

she'd sworn me vows in fragrant blood,

"never to part Lest jealous
Heavens stole our hearts"

then this i screamed,

"come back to Me for I was born
in love with Thee so why should
Fate stand in between"

if you wanted a song written about you, all you had to do was ask.

funny how things people say always seem to come around
and kick them straight where it hurts.

cliche ?
perhaps.
but it's true i guess.
well, at least that's what i think.

and one more thing.
the heart is a funny thing.
it has place for only one, apparently.
but it can somehow manage to squeeze another into the picture.
and you said it was impossible ?
amusing much.

hidup mesti mahu gentle, bro.

ingat.

fuck you, life.

hiatus,
fuck you all.

#2.

paul gray, you will never be forgotten. rest in peace.

the nine will never be the same without you.

in case anyone cared.

let's start off with one bad thing.
the weather's not being very nice.
the heat's killing every single one of my brain cells.
please make it rain, yea ?

enough lamenting on something that we can't do anything about.
on the flip side, the much overdued outing with the boys was gerek.
so much fun, so much laughter.
i need more of those.

kita gerek!

spring cleaning.

well, hello.
it has been a while, huh.

weeks flew by in a blink of an eye.
cliche, whatever.

week 6 approaching.
it's going by fast.
one thing i ask; please make it rain more often.
thank you very nice.

so many people i haven't caught up with.
apologies if it was any fault of mine.
but please, meet up soon yea.

and i know this is WAY too outdated, but happy 2010.
let's all hope 2010 will be kind to us all.

tough days don't last;

tough guys do.

thank you, all.

and not forgetting, you.

thank you all for organising the surprise party.

i was indeed, surprised.

take care, all of you.

and thanks once again.


i wish i could turn the clock faster.

i miss you.

my only reason.

when the moon starts to give me reasons to cry
you're my only reason to smile
even when the stars would not show
you'd still be there, shining brighter than any star ever could
you taught me to fly, and not be afraid to fall
cause we'll make it after all

even when they say failure's all i'll find
i'm not afraid to see the end
because i know you'll be there
and you make everything else make sense

the sunset could never melt my heart the way you could
you're like wings that keep my heart in the clouds
singing melodies that even god would be proud of
so keep singing all night long
i'd like to hear your voice again

if it rains on my parade
tomorrow will still shine again
even the day must give way to the night
keep singing the melody
for what it's worth,
you mean everything to me.

yatassha.

happy 19th birthday yat!

may you achieve all your hopes & dreams. (:

all that will be left are memories.

people tend to think too much.
and that's killing one too many brain cells.
it's plain simple to over-think stuff,
when in actual fact, it does not require all that trouble.

the problem is that when people think of what they
perceive as a problem, they tend to stray and think of their other problems.
that will then catapult them into problemville.

emotions get in the way as well,
the downside of being humans.

so take a little breather,
rest your head,
clear those unhappy thoughts for now.

because before too long,
everything will be just a memory.

if i'd wanted a song about me;

i'd write it myself.

movie & mini celebration.

fyi, this all happened on the 9th of october.

i miss going to class and seeing

every single one of the "doobtootz".

it's been fun while it lasted,

and i do hope there's more to come.